Questions asked on my Tumblr (if you have an account, you can ask here – note, I’ve disabled anonymous questions and please state if you want it as a FAQ on my blog), as well as previous questions asked of me on Skype, AIM or Facebook.
001. Why do you refer to yourself as ‘he’ or ‘him’? Why do you write yourself as a male? Sometimes I refer to myself as a ‘he’ when I write; the mind is male, the body is female. If you want science: I was born three months premature, at a time where the body just starts to identify with its gender; as a result, I was born in an estrogen dominant body with a mind that is heavily testosterone dominant.
002. Do you condone drug/alcohol use? Why, especially when your parents are abusive alcoholics/junkies? I’m in a grey area here. Have you ever read Irvine Welsh’s novel, Trainspotting – better yet, it’s prequel Skagboys? There is a character, Simon David Williamson (Sickboy) whom is more of a ‘weekender’: he does drugs as he feels like it and never, ever gets hooked. That is me. I can get high with some kush, some hill-billy heroin, pills, vallies and it doesn’t last longer than a week tops. I get bored. I want my mind back. Same goes for drinking, though I tend to use alcohol to speed up the effects of my seroquel, zopiclone and klonopin so I can get the fuck to sleep at night.
003. What are your official diagnoses – either from a doctor or a psychiatrist? Borderline personality disorder, bipolar disorder II (rapid-cycling), PTSD, GAD, social anxiety, OCD (germphobia, counting), anoretic (restrictive, non-purging sub-type), body dysmorphic disorder, agoraphobia, health anxiety, supraventricular tachycardia, reactive hypoglycemia, recurrent peptic ulcers, fibromyalgia, osteoarthritis (latter three are the result of 13 years of anorexic). I am not shy of talking about my physical or mental health, and those who choose to use this information as a form of personal attack or bullying should be ashamed of yourself.